"Or in the back of my mind I'm going, if I date this woman I'll have free access to 3 little girls. Now I dont want to date just because of the kids, but I dont want to feel guilty that I will be using her to get to her kids."

These are the thoughts going through Severen Shields head when deciding whether or not to date women. Shields is a member of a forum for pedophiles which specializes in "child erotica" stories, known as Mr. Double. Posting under the nickname "Devholyjoke," Shields shared some of his perverted thoughts with other sickos:

"I was in the mall the other day. I had a few girt certifacites to spend, so I was walking down one of the main halls. And in front of me was this cute little 8yo girl. Brown hair pulled into a ponytail, a pink and white sweater and jeans. She was just walking in front of me maybe 3 feet. Besides thinking damn this girl has a cute ass, I also was wondering were this child parents are….So I just admired her daughter's ass as I walked to my car."

Shields seems to always be on the lookout for the parents of children he's perving on, he talks about that more here:

"As I walked past the Wii display I saw a girl about 10-11 playing it. She has blond hair in a ponytail, a pink and white vertical striped sleeveless shirt with titlets poking out and white shorts. As I was taking in her beauty I notice that there wasn't a parent or any sibling hovering around or in the general area.

Now I was thinking, this is sad, if I was someone who could do evil things I could easily grab or coax this girl out of the store and into my car before her parents would even know that she was gone. But of course I just it be my fantasy and quietly walked to the front to check out."

Abducting a child is a "fantasy" to Shields...

Labels: Devholyjoke, Severen Shields

So, the pedos had a meeting. And they met with some "open minded" folks down in Maryland. Hey, the pedos have their acronym: MAA, why not give mental health professions their own? MHP. So, there you go, MAAs talking to MHPs. It was GLORIOUS!

Check it out. Here's the basic rundown, according to Dissident:

1. There were no cops there yay!
2. There is a good reason not to trust counselors, if you are a pedophile. I mean, yeah, considering that they are compelled to report child abuse. The pedophiles all agree about this.
3. Still, the pedos want to talk to them in order to further their agenda, but they can't present their FULL agenda. Yet. Maybe later, maybe soon. Depends on how cooperative the MHPs are, of course.
3. Some people are able to be in the same room with pedos and not hurt them yay!
4. Counselors are ill-equipped to deal with pedophile activists. Well, yeah.
5. There is hope for the future (if you want to rape children)
6. Smurf dancer spoke, talking about how, because he is a sex offender, he can't teach pretty little girls to dance. All the pedos frowned about that. Apparently the counselors in this meeting frowned as well.
7. More hope!
8. Dissident spent the night with Sproutinghalo. Ang got to know him very well. -wink-
9. Eggs could be thrown at the counselors who attended the conference AS WELL AS the pedos. Especially the ones who think pedoness is perfectly okay and that children should be hurt as often as the MAAs want.
10. Some of the counselors thought it was fascinating.
11. Dissident has never seen any evidence of child sexual abuse from his pedophile peers. (HHAHAHAHAHAHA!)
12. He told these counselors this.
13. They believed him. (HAHAHAHHAHA)
14. They ate food together. And agreed that Oprah is EVIL.
15. The pedos perved over an underaged looking food server.
16. Dissident hugged some psych major chick and it probably grossed her out. Big Time.
17. Party party party, go to more of these if you are a pedo or a mental health professional who thinks, hey, Pedophilia is Alright By Me!

That's pretty much it. I left out some things you can come to your own conclusions about in the comments sections. Here is the post in full:

"Hey, people. Though I never announced my intentions of doing so over the board over the past few weeks, I did attend the latest B4U-Act workshop. It was an extraordinarily positive experience for me and it went beyond my expectations. It wasn't a sting operation, there were no LEO's there. I understand that many of my friends from the community did not want me to go, as many of them do not like or trust MHP's (Mental Health Professionals)...often for good reason. However, this workshop meeting made it clear that there is every reason to have hope for the future for our community. Some of them are willing to listen to us. Though it's not possible for us to hit them with our full agenda for MAA emancipation and youth liberation at this time, we are at least at the point where some of them are capable and willing to question the prevailing media-inundated dogma about our community. Every single one of the MHP's who attended were courteous and willing to discuss the topic of the workshop: stigma and demonization. I realized during this workshop that the MHP's also have stigma to overcome: the idea that they generally act as cheerleaders and supporters of the prevailing status quo above all else and that they put politics before their desire to help people. Interestingly, two of the MHP's at the workshop conceded that the average MHP is currently ill-equipped to counsel MAA's regarding their problems that stem from living in a society that is so hostile to our attraction base and filled with numerous stereotypes and misinformation about us, and that too many MHP's believe the dogma that the media spews rather than having a real understanding of us as human beings. I was greatly pleased to hear an MHP say this, and for their willingness to reach a greater understanding of us. It made me realize that there is real hope for the future, and though it may take a while for such people to become amenable to ALL of our goals and to fully accept our love as completely valid, we are beginning to make progress and slowly but surely beginning to step out of our seclusion in cyberspace and into the public arena. I am convinced that the B4U-Act workshops are worth attending and that they have the potential to make real progress for our community, one step at a time.

One of the highlights of the workshop was a very poignant and moving presentation from Paul Christiano about his personal situation following his outing by Wikisposure. All of the MHP's there were sympathetic to him, and I was pleasantly surprised to see one of the more conservative MHP's in attendance speak out on how ridiculous it was for the system and the vigilantes to treat Paul in this fashion simply for looking at pictures. This gave me even more hope that the current ignorant attitudes that society and the lawmakers have regarding this can be successfully and powerfully challenged in the future, once we take a few more steps forward. I got to know Paul as a person during the two days I was there and he is truly a warm and terrific human being who has handled great adversity with courage and dignity. In fact, Paul was my roommate in the motel we stayed at during the last night I was there, and we had a long conversation regarding our respective situations and I had a very good time doing so. It was an honor to get to spend this social time with him.

It should be noted that the MHP's who attended took nearly as much risk as the MAA's who were there, because they are risking their careers and professional reputations simply for treating us as human beings and their willingness to say that they do not think pedophilia is a sickness. And yes, many of the MHP's there were critical of the DSM and what it considers to be mental illnesses. So I DO believe that there are at least a handful (and possibly a growing number) of MHP's who are worth our respect and who are willing to engage in respectful conversation with us and to view us as a valid minority group and distinct sexual orientation rather than to see us all as criminals and/or monsters.

One of the interesting and positive moments of the workshop was when one of the MHP's there made it clear that she was fascinated and genuinely interested (as opposed to reviled) with the idea of a man my age thinking that a 14 year old girl was extremely amazing and someone that I would be interested in dating had the laws allowed it. I told her that I could go on for hours describing all the reasons that I think young teen girls are wonderful if the workshop had that time to spare, and the whole group shared a laugh. I think the fact that an MHP can show a genuine curiosity and fascination with the idea of an adult finding someone so many years younger to be attractive in all ways (not just sexually, but also emotionally, socially, etc.) to be a positive indication that in the future not everyone will see such an attraction as evil or "
sick" but genuinely intriguing.

Another highlight of the workshop was an opportunity for us to dispell some of the hysterial lies and myths spread about our community. One of the MHP's present, who has a strong desire to prevent children from being harmed, told us that she is concerned about the Internet making it easier for real predators to meet and discuss ways of abusing kids, and that as an example she has heard that there are message boards on the Web filled with child molesters who openly (and legally) discuss ways of locating and sexually abusing minors. Where have we heard this before? I told her that there are all sorts of fears expressed as rationalizations for the government curtailing freedom of expression on the Net, and that the media and talk shows spread endless lies about the "sexual predator" hysteria. I assured her that I have never seen such an open and public board of child molesters explicitely discussing places to go where minors can be kidnapped and sexually abused in all the years I have been on the Net, and that the boards I participate in have strong rules against advocating illegal behavior of any kind, and that most of the MAA's I meet there are perfectly ethical human beings who do not support abuse. I also used the example of Oprah Winfrey recently describing an alleged training manual posted online by pedophiles that supposedly instructed MAA's in explicit detail on how to sexually abuse kids as young as infants, including the use of implements such as knives inserted into bodily orifices. I assured her that in my nine years of association with the open and public MAA forums I have NEVER come across anything remotely like that, and I told her that the lies and exaggerations routinely spewed from the likes of Oprah and other influential media moguls are largely responsible for panicking the general public into extreme hatred and fear of MAA's and into supporting all sorts of draconian measures to police society towards the alleged goal of "protecting" kids. I was glad to get the opportunity to directly address the lies routinely expressed about our community by the media, and the MHP who expressed this concern was relieved to hear that the many stories of "Internet predators" was greatly exaggerated. We had a good side conversation about this after the workshop ended, and before we all parted company I shared a hug with this particular MHP. It was a hug that represented hope for the future, that one day society as a whole will embrace us as human beings. I was further convinced by this workshop (though I was always of this opinion) that those of our community with the ideology that things are NEVER going to get any better for MAA's in society are completely wrong, and I am happy to express this opinion.

The time that the MAA's and MHP's in attendance spent socializing and mingling during breaks and when we all had lunch together were wonderful moments, as the MAA's there were all openly MAA's during this socializing with Nons, and it was wonderful to be completely open about this aspect of my life without apology or regret and associating with MHP's as equals (rather than as a patient forced to undergo "treatment" by the law) with MHP's who were willing to listen to us. We all got along very well, and I openly encourage more MAA's to attend these workshops in the future since with my health problems I am not certain how many of them I can attend in the future and thereby officially represent the GL subsection of the overall MAA community (Paul and I were the only two GLer's present there; the other MAA's were BLer's). The fact that one of the young woman serving us during lunch was incredibly hot was another highlight of the experience, and I'm just glad she didn't totally distract me from the business at hand (I was on cloud nine when she smiled and said 'hi' to me).

I should also mention that this was the first time I have met any fellow MAA's in person (Eeyore, take note!). It was a terrific experience, despite the fact that I only knew three of them and I never really spoke to Paul that much on the board. We had a good time socializing and hanging out, we went out to dinner together, and it was wonderful for all of us to be ourselves during this time. I look forward to meeting other MAA's in real life in the future.

I would like to personally thank Mike Melsheimer and Richard Kramer for arranging this workshop, and I was greatly honored to meet them both and for Mike to invite me to the workshop. Considering my many rather radical views, I was honestly surprised to be invited, as I'm sure some people might question my ability to stay on topic during the workshop and not discuss matters that the public is not yet ready to engage in, and I like to think I purported myself well there. These workshops are a wonderful opportunity for all MAA's who are hoping to work towards progress outside of cyberspace (you are all free to use assumed names during the workshops), and thus far B4U-Act is the only opportunity available to us to do so. I understand how wary some of you may be for attending such workshops in the future in these paranoid times, but I would love to see more of us step out of cyberspace and into the public to engage the world at large on our issues.

Thank you again to Mike Melsheimer for inviting me to attend and for him and Richard Kramer giving me this opportunity. "

Labels: B4U-Act, Dissident, Paul Christiano

Derek Foster (shown to the left) is a Youth Counselor and also a Fireman:

"I have a cool job. A youth Counselor for troubled teens. Males mind you. What a handful they are."

What Foster probably doesn't tell his employers, is that he's also a regular poster on a number of forums for pederasts under the screen name "TheGreatBL." He talks about his job a little more...

"I am always the funny, cool guy that all the kids love hanging out with. So, to me, that is am advantage that i love about being in my early 20's. Its the fact that i can associate with the younger crowd more. "

Fosters posts on pedophile forums range in a variety of pervert-related topics. From how he'd like to suck on a 12-year old child's genitals, through to how pedophile forums helped him come to perceive pedophilia as acceptable:

"I finally was happy with myself that i wasent alone. Being here and having the friends that i do from the board has made me finally happy and at peace with myself. I now feel normal and more at peace now knowing that im not alone. I am happy knowing that there are so many of us. "

...and this is someone who's working as a youth counselor.

Labels: Derek Foster, TheGreatBL

Mark Hunneyman AKA "Snowcat" is proud to be a pervert, he boasts to his fellow pedopals on BoyChat:

"I’m writing this because you guys have helped me take back control of my life one step at a time. I have made some wonderful friends who have given me hope and a real, authentic sense of pride. Shame has no place in my life anymore."

Places like BoyChat encourage pedophiles to embrace their desire to sexually abuse children and be proud of it.

Shame probably doesn't have much of a place in Mark's life... he's too distorted to realize what a perverted freak he is:

"The boy was really amazing. His skin was nice and tanned and he had that beautiful body that only a little boy can have. At one point he was sitting in his chair and he lifted his feet into the air so not only could I see his feet but I could almost catch a glimpse of what was in his shorts"

Pedophiles really have trouble grasping the fact that children aren't interested in being sexually abused by them, here's Mark again:

"20:37 <> just think, there's boys lying in their beds thinking about a man's cock

20:38 <> wishing to feel it, taste it'"

A run-in with the law when he was 19 prevents him from working around children, but Mark says he's holding out till his brother has children...

"I think at this point my only hope is that my brother will have kids someday soon."

Any guesses what he's planning to do?

Labels: Mark Hunneyman, Snowcat

To commemorate the occasion, we've produced a short video about the outings...

Labels: Childdriver, Devholyjoke, Elliptor, Gerald Moonen, Handfulofdust, Kanospower, Kittycat80, Miffy, Mr. Double, MyIDIsPhat, Nz, Psyco, Snowcat, Tmaximus95, Tom Reeves, Westcoaster

Wikisposure has once again out done themselves with the current outings Wikisposure Pedofright 2009!
This list of monsters is quite a haul, what a delightful Halloween treat!

	Francisco Perez AKA Kanospower "Welcome everyone that wants to be friends, dont mind the age nor anything else... "
	Chris Ilson AKA Westcoaster "In the case of a father with a daughter, I always believe it might be easier to start things if you were 'discovered' by your daughter while masturbating. Either nothing happens, or you get approached and something would happen. In either case, you'd have to follow up in a week's time and ask the daughter if they want to 'talk' and perhaps seeing that might lead to a nice discussion."
	Walter Howard AKA TMaximus95 "It's amazing to me how many cool stories I've read about the things boy lovers do with their young friend. It's not all about sex. I'm finding that many BL's hold their responsibility to a YF with a great conviction."
	Tom Reeves "The core of our identity must be unashamed love of boys as boys."
	Gary Wolchesky AKA MyIDIsPhat In October of 2009, thanks to the Youtube members who kept reporting him to law enforcement, Wolchesky was arrested on child endangerment charges.
	Gerald Moonen "9. In paragraph No 5, I explain that many young people seek a sexual confirmation and guidance from older people."
	Paul Sykes AKA Psyco "but for the record, I am a BL, in my 30's, My AOA (age of attraction for the newbies) is 8+ but my favorite kids to hang out with are the 10-12 yo's so if any of you have an extra boy kicking around who could use a friend or mentor, please send him my way"
	Mark Hunneyman AKA Snowcat "This is the perfect time of the year to see young boys of all shapes, sizes, and colors displaying their smooth lower legs. In my opinion, the thinner the better. My ideal boy is eight or nine with small little feet and thin smooth legs."
	Severen Shields aka Devholyjoke "Or in the back of my mind I'm going, if I date this woman I'll have free access to 3 little girls."
	John Kapshaw AKA Handfulofdust "So this is me, lifelong GL (and BL as well), finally opening up to Kindred Spirits."
	Einar Robert Fry AKA Kittycat80 "I am 28 years old and I live in Arizona. I work at a local casino as a Blackjack and Poker dealer. I have been a boylover pretty much all my life, although I didn't know there was a term for my attraction until I was around 19."
	Miffy AKA Simon Rose "i would love to grab a 2 year old girl from a shopping center take her in to some woods and split her open with my cock i would fuck her up every hole and shoot my load in her mouth"
	Jerry Douglas Ray AKA Childdriver "Well I showed my porn collection to my niece, she found it under the bed. This lead to discussions on what sex was and how it felt. Then of course she wanted to try somethings out. Neddless to say, the seeing sex first via porn, has done wonders to get the girls ready for the real thing."
	Tom Arthur AKA Mr. Double "Have her play like she is giving birth to a baby(preferably a girl). Then as soon as the head pops out of her pussy, fuck the baby's mouth while fucking her with the baby."
	Matthew Harman AKA Elliptor Little Boy Cum? "I would love that! Not huge buckets of cum, but just like when boys first hit puberty. Yummy"
	Paul Dobbins AKA Nz "lol yes, i fixed the age thing Anyone over 12 can join. If you really want yer little bro to join i can modify it for him just lemme know"
	Oscar Scott Guzman AKA Scott G " What, precisely, did you find so 'sick' in what I said above? That I fingered my little sister? I'm sorry that I don't conform to North America's societal norms, but can you tell me, besides that, what's so terrible about it?"
	Cory McDonald AKA CryptKeeper Topic: What turns You on Most About a Boy?? "depending on the boy really can be anything [Big Grin]"
	TheGreatBL AKA Derek Foster "in a pure fantasy world,using your imagination.would you like to suck or be suck by a 12 year boy? remember this is all just fantasy lol"
	Leland Stevenson "I befriended a young teenage boy….we went on a camping trip….on awakening in the morning, he positioned himself in such a way that nature would take its course….No lubricant was desired or required…he experienced what he wanted to experience. "
	Shane Hellenga AKA Boywtchr1975 "Kids nowadays are learning at younger ages and at faster paces then people did when I was growing up. This is my answer to the survey.....Yes. If the boy is initiating sexual contact, I respect his decision and would gladly consent."
	Glen Hall "I once tried the video camera in the shopping bag bit, basically for shits and grins. Once caught a young pre-teen girl, perhaps twelve, at a pinball machine in a short sun skirt I was having fun just standing close and looking over her shoulder but when I saw the tape the shoulder was not as appetizing.….the most sensual part was all the blonde peach fuzz leading up to the crack of her ass… I could probably explained away filming a mature woman, but a pre-teen?"
	Daniel Smock AKA AirboyDS "Summer is the best time to be a boylover, in my opinon. You have things such as the LLWS, and seeing boys while swim at the pool or the beach."
	Timothy Shehan AKA MrTim "If you had a daughter, are you sure of that statement? Most people, myself included, couldn't make that statement. I would say that I would try to avoid touching her sexually, but I couldn't guarantee that I wouldn't."
	Abear AKA Michael Herbert "You have permission to use my stories and my nickname however you want. But please remember that I am painting you in a good light in this story, and that I am just finishing a scene where you had sex with three young girls who are named after authors from this page."
	Walter David Bertsche III AKA Mortuis99 "23:53 <> i wanna see a live action ver of Enzai 23:55 <> in enzai there are some good ass raping scenes"

Happy Halloween from Absolute Zero United!

Labels: BoyChat, boylover.net, girlchat, NAMBLA, pedophile activists, VoA, Wikisposure

boylover.net, sometimes referred to as BL.net, is a private, members only forum, on which pedophiles can share their interest in young boys, and their views on pedophilia. Read more about this pedophile forum on Wikisposure

While you're there at Wikisposure read the Sosen Staff entry regarding the happenings behind the scenes at Sosen. Read how the staff was more concerned with someone finding out that the executive director of SoHopeful - Jim Freeman - was a ring leader in "the greatest group of pedos on the internet" than they were in trying to determine how he had fooled them all and how to prevent such a thing from happening again. And of course you might ask yourself why they named this man - TMaximus - to be their webmaster. Or why they put up that silly disclaimer saying you couldn't be a member of GirlChat or BoyChat and that you should report someone to "staff" if you found they were. Did they think those were the only pedogroups on the internet? And how do you report such behavior by a staff member to a staff member? Or perhaps you should just ask yourself exactly WHY we recognized what Walter Howard was and yet they never blinked an eye no matter how outrageous his rhetoric. Check it out: TMaximus, proud member of boylover.net, Sosen, Soclear, Rights and Law Network, etc

For me, it's a part of reliving the better years of my life. The hugging, kissing, and innocent touching that sends me into orbit.

I love to caress and massage a teen boy, because I remember how that felt for me when it was done.

If there's a teen boy that needs an older online brother here on BL.net, drop me a line. We can have a great online relationship/experience.

I Love the sexual stimulation and the companionship of another boy. {I still consider myself a boy at heart, but the wrinkles of my aging say other things}. I missed out on so many boyhood things that I should have experienced but was not able to. Perhaps it's my longing to relive my adolescence that keeps me fixated on teen boys?

I'm pretty much fixated on teens. That's not to say that I don't have "attractions" to younger boys, because I do.

There was a time when all I wanted was the sex. I had no understanding for Love and it's accountability. As a boy, I was a toy. As a man, I played with toys.

I love doing non sexual things with my young friends more than anything else. They enlighten me, encourage me, inspire me respect me. And they do it because they want to. Not because of gifts, bribes or exploitation. With every young friend I meet, a piece to this puzzle is found, and the picture thats being created is becoming more clear. It's not such a bad picture at all. The picture is darkened only when the love between us goes awry.

I've heard tell, in my fantasy world, that little ones are angels in disguise. But when I look at children today, I see the two little horns hanging out the sides of there angelic little skulls.

On the other hand, is it dangerous to flirt with little devils?

I know that my attractions involve mostly physical attributes, as I talked about in another thread.

For me, the perfect YF would be emotionally stable and mentally curious / inquisitive.

If anyone knows of such a kid, let me know. Tell me about him. That's all, just tell me about him

BLers and RSO's have a simple thing in common. Persecution from a bigoted society and a hypocritical judicial system.

I hate to say this, because I once Loved this Country, but this is not America anymore. Our Government representatives have legislated the bill of rights out of our system.

There's an awful lot of bogus information / ideas about boy lovers and RSO's. We certainly do have a lot in common.

I think the main issue that's plaguing all of us is the LAW.
The "public" believes that the actions of boy lovers are very damaging. I personally think that the public's response to sexual events is a bit too much, but who am I to question a boy's parents?

I had what I believed to be consensual sexual relations with several teen boys {for sums of money}. When my money ran low, one of the boys turned me in.

About 5 years into my prison bid, I learned that all the boys were exposed as "prostitutes." I boy committed suicide, two are now heroin junkies, and the 4th boy is doing well.

During my years in prison, I agreed to do sex offender treatment. I learned alot, but it all boils down to people not minding their own business. That's what does the most harm. If a boy has had sexual relations with a grown man, and feels upset, then, he should accept responsibility and be accountable for his own choices. However, boys are easily exploited {Money}, and will regret their actions later on. This is also responsible for their guilt, shame, and some times, depression.

I'd be lying if I told you I am no longer attracted to teen boys. I am still attracted, and always will be. However, I doubt I would ever put myself in that same type of jeopardy again. I would also recommend to others that you carefully consider your approach and actions with boys. Several American States have added the death penalty to child molestation laws.

I personally wish relationships with boys were legal, because sex is not that big of deal, until others decide not to mind their business. Kids who induldge with adults often commit social suicide by revealing their encounters. Sex is, and should remain a private matter unless it is forced, or there is exploitation involved.

I truly Love Boys, and never meant any harm. As a small boy, and into my twenties, I had sexual affairs with older men. I wasn't harmed by them. I was harmed by the pseudo-religious-intellectuals that have a hankering for dictating moral policy to the world, and other people who love to get into other peoples personal business.

America is in a crisis my friends... Civil rights are being stripped from citizens "accused" of certain crimes. The days of "innocent until proven guilty" are a thing of the past. The madness against sex offenders is only the beginning I believe. There will come a time when citizens other than sex offenders, boy lovers, and pedophiles will be deemed internal / domestic terrorists. Then it will move to another faction, like domestic abusers... etc...

Genitalmen, we need to start talking up {openly in society} about the government passing new and abusive laws that violate our constitution. Don't sit back and watch what happens, because it may be your door the next group of murderers knock on.

Labels: boylover.net, Pedophilia, SoClear, SOSEN, Tikibug, Tmaximus95, Walter Howard

We wrote recently about Jim Freeman - the proud pedophile sex offender activist - who was ordered to pay restitution to "Amy" in the sum of $3,263,758. Unfortunately she'll only receive about forty thousand from his retirement fund. He won't be needing it where he'll be spending the rest of his life after all.

Amy is fighting back. She's filed for restitution against at least 20 other people including Remsen McGinnis Benedict, AKA Wolfman and Raymond Highsmith a former Shriners leader. Hopefully more victims will follow in her footsteps to demand true justice and restitution. Amy begins her story: "My uncle started to abuse me when I was only 4 years old."

The Misty series is one of the most popular and readily available kiddie porn videos on the Internet. It's considered a collector's item among pedophiles. Downloading it is a felony. Officials have identified 750 individuals who possess the Misty series, but they believe tens of thousands of copies are out there.

Today, she suffers from severe post-traumatic stress disorder. Victims of child sexual abuse are more resistant to treatment than victims of other types of PTSD.

The next time you see someone refer to child pornography as a "thought crime" stop for a moment and remember Amy and all the children whose experiences echo hers. The next time you hear a dumb duck say that child pornography may "prevent" a pedophile from molesting a child, remember Amy. Take a moment and read her Victim Impact statement. Keep her story in mind when you hear a victim-bashing dumb duck say "victims can get help and go on with their lives but the offenders life is destroyed forever by these laws".

I am horrified by the thought that other children will probably be abused because of my pictures. Will someone show my pictures to other kids, like my uncle did to me, then tell them what to do? Will they see me and think it's okay for them to do the same thing? Will some sick person see my picture and then get the idea to do the same thing to another little girl? These thoughts make me sad and scared.

I am always scared that people can look at me and tell that I am a victim of sex abuse because my abuse is a public fact. I am worried that when my friends are on the internet they are going to come across my pictures and it fills me with shame and embarrassment.

Every day of my life I live in constant fear that someone will see my pictures and recognize me and that I will be humiliated all over again. It hurts me to know someone is looking at them -- at me -- when I was just a little girl being abused for the camera. I did not choose to be there, but now I am there forever in pictures that people are using to do sick things.

I am being exploited and used every day and every night somewhere in the world by someone. How can I ever get over this when the crime that is happening to me will never end? How can I get over this when the shameful abuse I suffered is out there forever and being enjoyed by sick people?

Please think about me and think about my life when you sentence this person to prison. Why should this person, who is continuing my abuse, be free when I am not free?

Labels: Child Pornography, Child Sexual Abuse, Jim Freeman, Pedophilia, Remsen Benedict, Victims Rights

We previously talked about Jennifer aka Jack Kaiser aka Lyrical Cancer here

I do admit to having some serious issues with this person. First it was his defense of Jizzony and his incessant harassment of me on YouTube that first set me off. Then he stole all the videos of him that I had worked so hard to steal - by claiming copyright to his child luring videos. Ballsy! But mainly it was just about his pedophilia and attempts to gain access to children.

When he was confronted about his pedo-activities he denied being pedo, can you believe that? I've always wondered why they defend their perversions so fiercely in pedo-places and deny it so strongly in others. Especially when we consider that Jack tried desperately to get attention while describing himself as "borderline sociopath" with an "obsession with necro" - frankly I expected a little more gratitude.

When Jack was arrested recently while trying to enroll in a school as a 15 year old boy I couldn't help but be reminded of Neil Havens Rodreick II - a 30 year old convicted sex offender who enrolled in an Arizona school as a 12 year old and was assisted by family members who pretended to be his father, uncle and grandfather.

There are people who are trying to make this into a "transgender" issue due to the fact that Jack was born female. But the truth of the matter is that Jack has been trying to pass himself off as a young boy for years while running pedophile websites and grooming children. Jack didn't pretend to be a kid in order to "get an education" as some have proposed. See these video clips to see Jack in action and I think there won't be any question about why Jack was trying to enroll in school as a child. From Wikisposure:

What makes the pedophile “Jack” particularly sinister and disturbing is his continued persistence to lure underage boys into a world of dangerous Sex Offenders, Child Pornographers and Pedophile activists with the ruse of being “Lyrical Cancer” (a 14 year old boy), despite continued warnings he has received from the police.

Labels: Child Predator, Grooming, Jack Kaiser, Lyrical Cancer, Pedophile Activism, Pedophilia, Wikisposure

Sancho Panza of GirlChat, posted about the two girls he's currently grooming:

"The presence of the first girl that made so love sick I could hardly sleep or eat a year ago.
Also the first time I got depressed being a pedophile."

"Love" isn't the word for it, but he's definitely right about the sick part...

"Her tiny, soft and sweet voice, well spoken and polite.

The body of a 9yo, the mind of a 14yo, but in reality 11yo. Such a lovely package.."

"But my dreams were shattered by A., every time I came to close to Laura A. would place herself between us grabbing my hand or arm.
Her statement was simple and clear: no one allowed between us, period."

Some children will be more eager for attention than others, there's nothing unusual or uncommon about that part; normal adults wouldn't think much of it, however Panza's by no means a normal adult. Instead he convinces himself that there's something below the surface - that the child's conveying some kind of message about being in a relationship, because he wants to believe it.

As usual, Panza's not alone in pretending children are interested in relationships with him, the GirlFreaks share the same convoluted thoughts:

Bottle

"Thanks a lot for sharing, I could feel the beauty of L, by your description, And most importantly, the wonderful nonverbal statement by A."

CatcherintheRye

"every time I came to close to Laura A. would place herself between us grabbing my hand or arm.
Her statement was simple and clear: no one allowed between us, period.

Aw, in a way, ya can't really complain about that :)

She wants you to herself. heh heh"

Silentmist

"A. would be preoccupied with me, and you could give all your attention to Laura and count every freckle on her beautiful face."

Sancho Panza

"But I couldn't resist the urge to take her ponytail in my hand when A. went to a toilet, even her hair is soft.

No sleepless nights this time, no pain. Final choices have been made.
Thanks for your lovely company and take care my little freckled friend."

Sancho Panza, laying in bed at 3:00 a.m. staring at the ceiling, the thoughts going through his head...

"I've done it! I've finally made up my mind about how this is going to work... No more sleepless nights for ole Panza."

This is how obsessed pedophiles are with seeing children how they want to see them, not how children really are.

Labels: Bottle, CatcherintheRye, Cognitive Distortions, Sancho Panza, Silentmist